rewind the clock of my life back to 無

wat if i can change my clock back to anytime?
would i go back to the most happy time of my life?
or go back to the point where i made the wrong choice and try to redo?
or back to the time where i dun have to think about anythin?

i dun think so

i wish i can rewind the clock of my life back to 無
i wish i am different
i wish i am somethin else
i wish i am nothing

they dislike me
they hate me
they find me annoying
they think i m useless

what am i here for?
what am i doing?
what am i supposed to do for you?
what am i to you?

the things around me suck like shit
i hate the way how everythin goes and works
noone will never ever understand me
everythin is fucked up

where is my heaven…..i hate everything

astigmatism…

I went to hospital today….
cuz of tama disease? well not for today

I had to have medical check up for the company interview….dunno for wat
I am healthy enough to work!!!! but better check up since i never done it for more than 3 years n also maybe my whole body is fucked up after heaven life in melbourne…,

anyway, i checked my blood pressure usin the machine, it was quite ok i think.
I had to fill up one form about my medical history….
and there was one question askin “do you drink? if so how many days per week?”, and “do you smoke? if so how many per day?”  I was like…hmmm how should i answer….. in the end, i followed my honest mind and wrote “drink once a week” and “dun smoke”.
then after had urinalysis, auditory, visual, and had X-ray check.
when i was checkin my eye, i found out that….my right eye sight is only half of my left eye sight!!!! and the doc said i have astigmatism….damn gg

no wonder sometimes i cannot see the things perfectly…like i see the image double or cannot see the distance….

i also checked my weight and height…OMG I SHRANK!!!!!! i was 182.1 and now i am 181.7!!! FARRRRKKKKKK how come i shrank oneeeeeee
somemore my weight….no wonder mama scold me like hell and ask me go on diet… there was a chart showin the relevant relation of weight and height….180 cm normal ppl supposed to have 72 kg and i have now wat….77? muz go on diet ady…granpa n granma stop feedin me so much plz!

hope when i check my blood and other stuff next time, i dun have anythin bad…

wei sister’s trip to tokyo

Yuen, Jin and Chi thanx for visitin tokyo!!!!! (and of cuz uncle n auntie! lol)

I met them in disneyland on the first day.
they were still the same…so happy to meet them again!!! esp wj, so long never seen her..

we went 3D theatre place and shootin arcade first.

 

then got on space mountain….coaster in dark..fast up and down, really fun!!
then went small world, watch parade, pirates of caribbian, haunted house, and so on..

at lasr before went for shoppin, we got on splash moutain…even though i ve been to disneyland for so many times, i still love this so much!!!! its sooo fun and scary tooooo. look at our face!!! (esp yuen lol)

then second day, we went to yokohama n visited china town and yamashita park.
at china town, i ate chinese food after so long….i missed chinese food a lot
then after walkin around the china town, we went to seaside yamashita park.
the view from there is really nice, can see bay bridge also.
as it gets darker, the scenary gettin better…at night, the light spots are soooo beautiful!!!

then after dinner, sharon joined us and we went for drinkin!
we took quite long to find the nice place to drink…and also the place took so long to prepare one table for us!!
we didn have much time to drink, sit down and enjoy chat, but it was fun and nice catchin up =)
had some cocktails and japanese sake~ and edamame and softbone karaage as well

 

on the last day, we went shoppin for whole day at shibuya 109!!!
basically i was bringin them to the shop, translate, give them comment about the clothes and also carry their stuff..lol
haha they spent one whole afternoon at one shoppin complex!!!!! and bought quite a lot of stuff too.
so funny that at one shop, when wj was tryin skirt and shorts, the lady at the shop is like so pushin style, that bringin new clothes one by one and forcin wj to try one by one. so me n yuen were like start enjoyin that tellin lady to bring some more clothes without askin wj and let her wear like fashion show…haha one of the clothes so cute!!! wj was like little doll with flare coat and with flower necklace. lol
well, since we were there for whole day so couldn go to harajuku….dw when u guys come back i will sure bring u there, its really nice place to shop too =)

then we had dinner at ikebukuro, ate shabushabu and sukiyaki set…we had late lunch at shibuya (ramen) so couldn eat much but it was yummyy~~

then lastly went tokyu hands to buy some stuff for jack and sean and keatmei..

 

haizzz was so sad to say byebye….dunno when i can meet u guys next time…but i will make sure i will visit u guys in either msia or melb!!!!
thanx for comin to japan and visit me lor!!! hope u guys enjoyed the whole trip =)
i will miss you guysssss

conversiation between two hamsup men

there were two bored men talkin on the skype…..

X: “hey I am so bored man, what are you doing?”
Y: “hahahah i am doin nothin man….goin out for supper and go out play pool and stuff…stayin home is so boring”
X: “hahaha then why not go flirt or watch porn or somethin? lol”
Y: “no girls around me….they are all so XXXX ma….and u know watchin porn is so boring…i can only tahan 10 mins”
X: “is that becuz u finish jackin off in 10 mins of porn is it? LOL”
Y: “HAHA stupid…..no la…but last time i watched porn with my ex together and then half way she start listenin to music and i start playin game…its so boring”
X: “yea i know!!!! it happened to me also before…watchin porn with ex and half way i fell asleep…watchin porn is so boring….and u know wat..i watched one here…since i had nothin to do…now u know how bored i am here…no friends, no girls! sian….”
Y: “HAHAH you are there with so many pretty girls out there man, why not u go out hunt for girls? or u also got someone there and also had friends there wat?”
X: “yea la i know but still u know….oh btw we were talkin about the girls while we went for shoppin yesterday and we were sayin that there were so many `ur type of girls`, thin and cute cute type. lol”
Y: “shit sounds so nice….i wanna go there now man”
X: “yea come man…then u can get so many at once…and enjoy ur night everyday.”
Y: “LOL are you serious?”
X: “yea of cuz!!! u so handsome and erotic, confirm girls wan u one la lol”
Y: “but they cannot speak well right?”
X: “aiyo doesnt matter la use ur body language…juz show ur special movement with butt shakin dance”
Y: “LOL okok i will come soon”
X: “dun forget to bring some girls back for me =)”

wat a rubbish

P.S. this is fiction…so stop thinkin that i am one of the X or Y plz. thanx =)

Awesome Jay’s concert!!!!

Jay’s concert was super awesome!!!!!

too bad i couldn take any photos (cuz stupid security didn let us bring camera in!!!) but oh well it was really nice~~

most of the songs i wanted to hear, he got sing.. all the songs from new album, Bu Neng Shuo Mi Mi (with solo piano version!!!), Ting Ma Ma De Hua, Qian Li Zhi Wai, Ben Cao Gang Mu, Mi Die Xiang, Ju Hua Tai, huo Yuan Jia, Ye Qu, Ren Zhe, Zui Hou De Zhan Yi, Qi Li Xiang, An Jing…

also he got speak jap….damn funny!!!!!
“iidesuneee”, “soudesuneee”, “genkidesuneeeee” hahahha everythin end with “neeee” lol. in the end somemore say “sonnano kankeinai” LOL when i heard that couldn stop laughin hhahahahaha.
oh, and he got play “yuki no hana” by mika nakajima with piano and got sing in japanese…wahhh so coooool…

i like Qi Li Xiang…..when everyone singin together..wah so nice…

hahahah anyway, it was really great concert and really enjoyed!!!!
thanx sharon for companyin me to the concert =)

Happy V-day!!!!

Happy V-day to everyone!!!!

It is just another ordinary day for single ppl like me…and maybe it is special day for ppl who are in relationship….

oh well, here is gift to everyone from me : happy v-day letter

“Happy v-day!!!
whoeva read this … wish you have a good day and sweet time =)
dun worry if you do not have person to spend the special time wiht…
I will be right here to company you xD
If you want or need anythin, juz let me know…i will be a santa for v-day =)
Here is the chocolate n love letter to everyone who miss me and to whom i miss..

i miss you all

lots of love
tama”

oh btw, in japanese custom, v-day is for girls to give choco to guys…so whoeva wanan gimme choco…i am waitin lol
and i will return you with some present on white day (14th march) =)

well again, wish u all the best

you cut me deep

you cut me deep
found replacement of me
on the day arrive to the new lab
where you found me before
i am so sad you retrive me
you cut me deep

Sugar & Spice ～風味絶佳～

“It is important to know when to be kind and when to be tough. If you are just nice all the time, the girl will throw you away.”

“No means yes to only one person.”

“Sugar is the only the medicine for the brain, so take sweets and think and consider more carefully.”

“Do not forget the experiences you had, make good use of it for your true love.”

I will be waiting right here until my true love, you, appear in front of me……

v-day argue

soon valentines day is comin…so today on MSN we were talkin about v-day plan and stuff. 

topic one: wats plan on v-day?
we were all like “no plans”, then askin each other to go find somethin to do or buy chocolate for girls n so on….too bad japan is bit dif that its for girls to give chocolate to guys…i am hopeless this year? since i have no friends in japan…oh well nvm, i am single and stay home and hide. 

topic two: reputation or chocolate?
Mr. S asked me if i take reputation or chocolate on v-day….
well, i think i will choose reputation cuz its important and also i dun like chocolate anyway…. but he said he is gonna choose chocolate cuz “choc is one thing but reputation is not even a thing” hmm….but isnt choc juz a thing? i wan the real feelin behind the choc, not the thing itself….

topic three: v-day is fucked up, agree or disagree
Mr.G s opinion was “for single ppl, its a day wherethey become emo cuz of seein all the couples around and for couples, everythin is twice as expensive and fucked up” … well, i know wat u mean, but i dun think so….v-day is special day for couple definitely (maybe u dunno cuz u never done anythin on that day? kiddin) and for single ppl…maybe got chance to find someone? well never know…

wat u all think?
anyway my plan for this year is nothin….usual? or unusual?
i bet i will be juz stayin home and do nothin….sigh

miss you…

nice, kind, friendly = flirty??

ppl often call me flirty.
i thought i was juz bein nice kind and friendly.
some say it is same, some say its not….
some say i am juz naturally like that….is that good or bad?
hmmm what should i do?

i am back in tokyo again…today it snows damn heavily!!!!
everytime i come down to tokyo, it snows….
its so rare to be snowin like this in tokyo city….
maybe i am snowman

tmr got first job interview, Hitachi DuPont Microsystems, at Hitachi
good luck to myself