it must be “two way”, always….

things can never be one way,
it must be two way all the time, always

two way rain, two way snow….
always not only from one way, but from another also

it applies to our life
there is not only myself, but others, so it cannot be one way
i cannot be selfish, i cannot be the one all the time,
must listen to others, must think about others

i am gonna start working from tmr, joinin new society
hopefully i can handle my new life
hopefully i can get used to it

things will change very fast
i miss my past, but i have to keep movin on

what my birthday means (on fb)

Based on my birthday

You are outgoing and love to be at the center of attention. From the ouside, you may seem flashy, flirty, and tricky but your true self is strong, full of hope to be the leader. When you fail to convince someone, you will get frustrated, and perhaps let your temper shows. Your love, You are emotional. Many can win your heart at once, but not for long. This is why you hardly win a decent relationship.

 

wahh……omg…..isnt it so true??

P.S. how about this….
Loving: Your best quality is loving. People like you because of your loving nature. You are a nice person that cares about others. Your loving nature makes you a good friend.

P.S.2 wat about this?
My dream partner: Your dream partner has to be a loving one. He or she will bring you figts all the time, for no reason at all. You are their main priority. They are definately a keeper.

new house => new life

i juz moved into new house!
its 2 mins away from the station, 15 mins train from city and 15 mins train from my work too.
even though its 2DK, still damn small….compared to my lovely milano home…..
oh well, its big enough to stay for myself and my bro.
the place around here is quite quiet, but got so many interestin stuff.
i guess its not bad to start the new life from here.

i will take pic next time n upload….and of cuz sakura too!!!!
wait n see okie =)

plan is just a plan

i was plannin this for so long….and last min, all the plan is screwed….

hope is hope
wish is wish
dream is dream
plan is plan

but, reality is reality and its dif from all those sweet stuff

now i gotta re-plan everything…..

big sigh

had enough…

i had enough….
stop askin me the same thing over and over
stop askin others the same thing as well
enough of this shit….enough

story on the shinkansen

on the way back from osaka on the shinkansen…..

i was readin book on the shinkansen, then at one stop, the fuckin fat ass bald dude was gettin off, then he passed by me with fuckin big ass shit bag and hit my knee. i was like wtf? but then i kept readin the book. then suddenly i felt that the fat ass was lookin at me, so i turned around with wtf face. then he suddenly shouted (of cuz in jap) “hey dude, ur fuckin leg is disturbin the way, put ur fuckin leg back to the spot.”  I was like (in english) “WTF, ur fuckin big shit bag hit my leg, not that i disturbed ur way, u fuckin fatass.” he is like quite big size and showin fierce face but then he doesnt know how to speak english i guess, he said somemore in japanese “wtf, do u wanna die?”  I also got pissed off and i was like (in english) “you wanna try u fuckin cunt? you are juz a big fuckin fatass bald basturd that cant do shit. If cannot do anythin then always try to use force? asshole, u fuckin loser. get the fuckin ur ass off from the train and go fuckin diet in the hotspring mofo.” then i think it was his wife came and sayin (in jap) “er plz its in the public train, juz get off stupid idiot” then he went off but he was still shoutin FUCK OFF. i was like showin my finger and ignored him.

i felt good? i dunno.

things are not easy to be settled

there are so many uncertain things around me
and it doesnt really go in the way i wan
more i wan, it goes in dif way
and more troubles and unknown things are comin with
i am gettin tired of it

things are not easy to be settled…

sushi tabehoudai at odaiba

today i had lunch with my mom at Akasaka, had tempura set…
and was talkin to her about my future….hmmm
job is deicided, but still got a lot to settle.
i might study while i am workin for doctor degree.
see how it goes

then, i had dinner at odaiba with yusuke, shutaro, asuka and sharon.
we had sushi tabehoudai (eat as much as we want)
it was superrr yummyyyyyyy
and the view from the shop is damn nice…can see rainbow bridge reall clearly…
wah….i ate so much and had nice catch up with them =)

oh, like before dinner, we supposed to meet up at 6, but then stupid shutaro was late for like an hour plus and we all had to wait for him…then when we reached odaiba, the sushi shop was so full, then had to wait there like 15 mins again,

durin dinner, we were so bashin shutaro about the lateness, and so bullyin him all the way. and laughin about his english and other stuff too lol.
also was talkin about yusuke how badly he always had been late…
there was once, we all were waitin for him at burger king in singapore, he was already late for like half an hour plus. then i called him he was still at home. after another half an hour, he called me and told me. i was like “wtf where are you now?” then he was like “oh i am in front of BK, where are you guys?” i went out from BK to look for him, but he wasnt there, so i was like “wth, where the hell are you? i cannot see you” then he was like “oh actually i am inside the toilet” then i went to look for him, he wasnt there…”oi. stop lyin cock, where the fuck are you?” then he was like “are you blind nuts, why cant find me…oh wait i call u back” then he cut off the phone…..then finally after 20 more mins, he appeared…when he told us he was infront of BK, actually he juz got on the bus!!!! wth….damn rude at time 

anyway, in the end, when we finished dinner was already 10 plus and when reached home it was 11 plus!!!!
sorry sharon that you couldn make it for the curfew…..all our fault

tmr will be the day everythin will be decided….jia you

now only i regret, but life goes on….

its time to pay back all the things i ve done….
i really regret wat i ve been doin in my entire life….

sorry to my parents….
couldn be a good son as u expected….
u spent so much on me, let me did wateva i wanted to do,
and in the end turned out like this…

sorry to ppl around me who helped me all the time….
but i couldnt  do as well as it should have been

and sorry to myself…
i really regret a lot of stuff now

i dunno if the path i choose is correct or not
i dunno if my choice was correct or not

but i really feel bad to myself…..i only can cry now….
i regret so much….but life goes on….

fat tama

i am gettin fat
i think i really start thinkin to worry about it now

when i was in singapore, with this height, i only weigh 62 kg.
after move to melb, i gained…15 kg in 3 yeara? OMG

no wonder mama complain i gettin fat and everytime she sees me the first word she said is “you gettin fat again!!!”…..

my friends calls me fat tama too…

why am i gettin so fat?
eat too much? no exercise? too much stress? or……

i really need to start diet
i really think my face is so rounded now

ganbatte tama